waiting for dexter.

i'm not an astrology nut - when i was 12 i was "dumped" on what Teen Magazine had deemed my "lucky love day" for the month, and i gave up on the zodiac predictions right then and there - but i do believe in the traits attributed to each sign. i'm a pisces, which is symbolized by two fish swimming in the opposite direction. so along with my love of water, my life is often categorized by opposites and contradictions.

one of the major ones is that i get scared very, VERY, easily -- as a 9-year-old i was almost too afraid to go into the haunted house in disney world. i can't watch scary movies. i can't even look at the covers of the cases of horror movies at the video store lest i get nightmares from the pictures. the second the lights go off i assume something is going to come out of my closet and attack me. i'm horrible at staying home by myself. i have a super-active imagination, and the moment something minorly macabre pops into my brain, it manifests itself into a horror flick with me as its panic-stricken star. its actually pathetic. -- yet i have a huge fascination with serial killers.

i always have. its ridiculous that i can be so curious about the most disturbing members of society when i'm too afraid to watch something like "the lost boys" by myself. you know what one of my top fears is? it's not getting hit by a bus. it's not flying. it's not heights. it's getting eaten alive by rats. clearly i've spent too much time reading and watching the actions of the demented murdering set.

so suffice to say, i'm super-excited for the new series Dexter, which starts this sunday on showtime. i hope its not all gore and torture, and that they actually delve into his mind and motivations and all, but i have faith in the channel for a decent plot line. although i imagine this means i won't be getting much sleep for the next few months.